Feeling more myself this summer

Saturday, 14 July 2018

The witchy dark haired Jessica is back! It feels like a lifetime that I had my black hair and if I'm honest even though I only started to lighten it in January I feel much more happier dying it back black because I feel myself again. Weird how a hair colour can make you not like yourself, but despite living how it looked in photographs I really disliked how the ginger hair looked in person. I got a lot of comments from people saying they preferred it black and well I caved, people suck when they're telling you something about your appearance but I'm happy I made the change back. 

Anyway! A place on the internet I never think to check for clothing is Amazon, but when a boutique on the site contacted me to see if I wanted to style items of clothing I was beyond curious. I never knew that Amazon actually had a market place section for users to sell their own goods, Exlura currently offering in season items of clothing like floral dresses and occasional wear! Who doesn't love a good floral dress!

sunflower print dress* ~ Exlura . sheer black top ~ H&M . black little heels ~ Boohoo

I usually struggle in summer to style pieces because lets face it, I'm definitely an autumn/winter baby. I love black clothing, layers, feeling cool breezes and wearing jackets. Jumpers are my thang! I rarely have clothes appropriate for the warmer months and I don't deal with the heat very well...but I think I've turned it around this year to actually produce some good outfits I keep going back to! 

It's been hard with ginger hair to find myself and I just kept going for a very girly look  I didn't feel was me. I love vintage clothing but I also want my alternative personal style to come through and it feels like that's not been the case with me for a while now. Styling a floral dress was going to be a challenge and I was so excited to style it in a way that was different from most. I went with darker accessories to grunge things  up and you can't go wrong with a sheer short sleeve t-shirt in this weather. One of my friends described this look as grandma meets goth and I think that's the perfect description for it.

I didn't really know what to expect with quality because hey, when do I order clothing from amazon. I chose the sunflower dress* because I adore the print and yellow is my new favourite colour I keep swaying to in items! The fits is exactly what you want in a size small, a little room on the waist band to breath but brings in my waist to let the midi length make you feel really feminine. I have been wearing it with chunky heeled boots but with the spirit of summer I wanted to dress it up a little with some strappy heels. I think it's just the perfect dress for every day wear and so easy to then adjust to a night time situation. 

It feels great to want to blog again and feel the motivation coming back to me! I won't be posting as often as I have done in the past, but I will be making more than one appearance a week so I hope you enjoy the new content from me.  

Until next time guys,

(DISCLAIMER: Items marked * we're sent to me free in exchange for a blog post. All words are honest and my own opinion)

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Training myself to Adult

Saturday, 7 July 2018

It's been nearly 6 months since I moved into my own home alone at first I thought it was probably the start of a very bad path because hell, apart from being at university I'd never really lived alone. Since going off to uni I always had house mates and then moved in with my last can guess what happened next.

It took me a very long time to adjust to single life but now I feel so comfortable with myself and it's the best feeling waking up and just being able to follow my own routine that doesn't include another. Sounds selfish but for the first time I'm putting my self first and I think it's allowed me to really grow as a person! I've picked up little things here and there to make my life so much easier, so I wanted to put together a post to almost show this stepping stone in my life.

I really needed this, I've learnt things and stepped up to being the woman I want to be and hopefully these little tips or tricks maybe that I've picked up can help you in some way!

Reduce the amount of technology on a night

It was getting to a point in my life where I was working in an office on a computer 8 hours a day and then coming home to not only be on my phone, but laptop AND watching television up until midnight. I think it wasn't an encouraging lifestyle to switch myself off from work mode, so I've been putting down the laptop half way through my night and having a 'shutting off' period towards the end of my night. I'll cuddle up and just watch tv, put down my phone and then even some nights read before bed! It means I can sleep better and I have noticed how less stressed I feel be away from a blaring screen. 

Don't over run myself on a weekday 

I have my hands in a lot of project pots, but I've found that separating that time from my full time job has helped me not feel so busy. On a week day I work 8 hours and spend two hours traveling, so when I get home at 6pm from being up at 6am I just don't feel like sinking my teeth into a lot. I've figured out that if I plan my week based around on what I need to do at the weekend I can get a lot more done, rather than producing tired content because I'm dying to jump straight into bed after work! Yeah it means a lot of plans have been turned down on the weekend because I have a bunch of work to do, but with prioritizing and better planning I have more time than ever for everything. Put yourself and your mental state first. 

Self care & house care on the weekdays

Instead of pushing my 'work' onto myself, in the week I've decided to take up tasks that are small but also can be casually done through out the night to wind down. I'll probably never sound more than an adult then when I say I have a night where I just sort out my washing and ironing it...which I look forward to. I have a cup of tea, a program on the television and then I sit down and iron. I love it! It's small tasks like this that let me switch off when I need to especially after work. Cleaning my home really makes me feel calmer and being in that clean environment is one less thing for me to worry about on the weekend when it is work time.

Meal prep & planning

This is one huge trick that not only has allowed me to save lots of money but also it gives me one less thing to worry about. I start my month by putting together a list of what meals I want to cook and how many portions I can get out of that, then I head to Aldi and do a big monthly shop! The freezer is your best friend, I prep all my meals for the week a head and freeze them! I'm wasting less food and it also means I don't run out of food. I won't lie, it's also super fun planning new meals and throwing in what I love to eat into a huge month plan!

Motivating myself to feeling better with exercise 

I'm happy that its finally summer because it means I'm more encouraged to head outside and get the fresh air we all need! One thing I've wanted to get into for a while is going to the gym, but whilst I'm trying to save money I've been looking more into what I can do from the comforts of my own home. YouTube is a life saver with little mini work outs and even yoga! I actually got into running and the nice thing about it is no I can work around my own routine as to when and how I run. I started small and now I can actually run far!

Looking after another life being 

I've had pets before but I've never had a pet alone and I think having Fang in my life has really grow me further as a person! I have to look after another being which has made me step up my responsibility. I come home early, I budget him into my wage and I also keep things nice and tidy so he doesn't have any bad things to chew or hurt myself on. Don't dive straight into getting a pet without thinking and planning for a very long time about it! But I love having a little kitten for company, just having something to look after has taken my mind off the worse things going on in my life over this 6 month period.

I've impressed myself with the progress I've made and I'm excited to make realistic goals that I now know I can achieve. I want to read more, I want to atleast read a book a week and filter in that chill down time more often. It's been so long that I've sat in the day time and just read, my mind races with all the things I could be doing but I really think that switching off from work time will do me some good. 
Home wise I really want to hang more art around the place, upstairs especially is my new focus! I've had a selection of prints up in the living room without frames and finally one of my goals for this summer is to get them all framed and put in an order. Some exciting news, I'm actually getting a house mate! One of my best friends is moving into the second room within the month and I can't wait. 

Another goal I want to set myself is to do something with my garden! I have a paved long back garden and currently it just houses my bins and two deck chairs. There are strips of plants running down each side but it needs desperately looking at. I really want to weed the entire thing and plant some flowers or even sun flowers! I know I'll probably need to do it in a couple more seasons, but it's a long term goal that I can start now by trimming it all. 

Until next time guys,

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Coping with the heat when you're really not a summer baby

Wednesday, 4 July 2018

Do not be fooled, despite being layered up in this outfit I am a complete fail of a melting blob human when it comes to summer because I just don't do well in heat. Even though it was sunny the day I shot this outfit there was a breeze saving my life! Anyway, I am a winter baby and despite hating having to wear 100000 layers and tights I actually prefer it over summer. I'm always sat on the fence (literally look at me I'm on a fence) about summer because I do love being able to get my legs out and wear dresses BUT I just don't think it's worth me being a sweaty mess every day right up till September starts. My perfect time of year is late September because its starting to get breezy but you can get away with weather culottes and a light jacket. It's sunny but you know the chill is right round the corner, so right now I'm just trying to get by day by day until my favourite season is upon us!

I think I find summer such a struggle because I hate to get my arms out so I kind of do myself in really. I won't wear vest tops or scrappy dresses without a t-shirt underneath, so no wonder I'm always dying after walking in the sun for ten minutes. I have a dark dress sense and I find it hard to style anything too because I just over heat, so I thought I'd put together some tips on how to get by this summer with the big heat wave we're having here in Britain. 

Layer dresses with mesh tops

The best way to layer an outfit if you hate getting your arms out like me is wear a mesh top underneath! You feel like you're wearing nothing because it's so thin and you still have your arms out without actually having them out. I thought it'd feel super uncomfortable if I started to sweat a little but thats why you keep a good full can of deodorant on you at all times! Mesh is a good item to add an alternative twist to a cute dress. 

Experiment with cute braids or ways to put your hair up

I haven't seemed to master the cute messy bun, but I do feel super good about myself when I'm rocking a cute braid crown. Instead of feeling like a mess scraping the hair off your face in a up do that I'm definitely not used to, I think doing something a little different with your hair can make you more confident about your appearance in summer. Keeping cool and keeping cute!

Accessories to replace your sleeves

If you really want to brave the sleeveless tops then one way you can make yourself feel like plain is accessories! Add cute little necklaces or big chunky ones, belts, a handbag - I feel less bare if I have layers and those don't particularly need to be in the form of clothing.  

Ditch tight clothing

The moment I start to over heat I detest everything around me, wanting to literally strip to nothing and just sprawl on the floor. Instead, I have to be clothed and go about my day so I've been living in oversized dresses which is so comfortable. Buy a couple of smock dresses and you'll feel super breezy walking around in a cute dress, but not sweating your pits off in a tight top.

Take out your water bottle 

Cut down on plastic by taking a reusable water bottle with you to work and even just if you're out walking! Of course in summer the amount of plastic wasted on people purchasing water isn't going to be good for our planet, so be a little more environmental friendly with a water bottle. Mine has a handle and I literally carry it with me everywhere I go. Plus you're saving money using the tap and not spending £1 every time you need a drink of water.

I didn't realise how much my hair and pinafore matched but what a good colour choice! I've been feeling the rustic colours lately and I think it matches with how warm everything is. Two things I'd say I've taken from summer is lighter colours and feeling more body confident! 

Until next time guys,

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What they don't tell you about working on the internet

Sunday, 1 July 2018

I think as bloggers one thing that is swept under the carpet a lot is what it's like to really work on the internet, people assume what a freelancers life is like and take our sunny shots out in the cities sipping cocktails a little too seriously. Everyone on social media posts their best self because it's what makes them and others happy, but in a way this can be sharing a false self because I can guarantee those influencers you love and follow aren't having fun easily living their dreams 24/7. A lot of hard work and nights in goes into working for yourself online and for a while now I've wanted to collect some of my thoughts and put them into a blog post!

A lot of hard work and dedication is needed to keep up an online appearance, whether this be in the blogging world or just general online work. If you didn't know I also run an online store selling my artwork, so keeping a constant online presence has gone past just wanting to make it big as a blogger for me. I rely on social media to build not only a blog following but now customers too and I think that is where the fear sets in because it's a weird though that the internet is how I pay my bills. This thing in my computer and phone is what I use to keep myself fed and alive...I don't know if thats too much of a deep thought for a Sunday, but I just think it's not as simple than what you write down on paper. 

Working on the internet is a lot of nights in working, it's turning down that offer to go to the pub or hanging out with your sister. When I first started this online adventure I did it very part time so when I could manage a spare hour here and there between work and uni. I could only imagine working freelance from home and I have to say it's lonely as hell and most online creators can agree. 
I spend a good portion of my week just on my laptop catching up with everything I need to do, I go to work, come home and I'm straight on that laptop which leaves pretty little time to fit anyone in. I've been single now for 6 months and I've manage to cram so many projects and step up the quality of everything, but now this new routine means it's been hard to let people in. I get human interaction when I shoot photographs for my blog, but that literally is 20% of the job and for the rest I'm alone. I have realistically 5 hours a day to clean my home, look after my kitten, look after myself like eat, shower and then the rest of the time I'm trying to cram in writing blog posts, editing videos and also creating prints for my store to sell. My store has become a big priority but with that has come having to shut myself away from people to really give myself completely to what I'm doing. Working online is lonely because you're not going to want to be in a room full of people when you're trying to write posts or package up orders. 

I think if it wasn't for the supportive online family I've made through blogging I wouldn't still be doing it. It amazing to be able to message someone and feel like you're receiving human contact.

One thing that I feel is a little swept under the carpet is the competition you're unknowingly getting yourself in when you start to work online. Again whether it's blogging or being an independent store, you're then competing for others attention with a full world of online users. This isn't necessarily a big point that bothers me, it's not like we're competing to get one spot on a university course like I've had to deal with in the past, but you do want people to read and love your stuff. You want to attract followers, readers, do the right thing to get you bigger, which I think we all do consider in the back of our brains. I've found that I feel so much less stressed if I just stop looking at numbers and post what I want - if I collect people who love the same things as me fantastic, if not I need to stop getting so down about it. 

I think one problem about being an influencer or seller online is how easy it is to compare yourself to others - don't fall into that toxic trap of looking at others and thinking 'why are they doing so well and I'm not'. You can turn that negative thought into motivation to push yourself or sit in a grey bubble of self doubt, everyone has their own journeys and I kind of hate the internet for this because you're only seeing someones good points. As a blogger you're not going to put your bad shoots or bad quality work out there are you, the same as you wouldn't put a failed drawing online because sadly it's not what people want. Don't check someones feed and assume their life is all bright sunny shots and adventurous outings all the time and that your life should be that. 

I want to do a full post on managing full time work and blogging, but I don't think I'd be able to cope without scheduling every tiny thing. Tweets, instagram posts, blog posts, I even have a little planner of whens best to advertise my art work and blog posts. Unfortunately for us social media has become really hard to grow recently and it's caused us all to take notice and do our research on how to market. Networking has always been a no brainer for me but now I not only rely on it for followers but customers to my store's stressful. Schedule everything and I can 100% confirm that pretty much every influencers tweets have been scheduled on a sunday ready for the following week and they're not constantly on their phones. I've had messages before saying I hadn't contacted them back but I was on my phone posting on my social medias, when really I'm at work or napping. 

I found it quite comical how scheduled my life has become, I actually have black hair right now but I've got so much content planned with my orange locks that you won't be seeing that till at least August!

I've been feeling really uninspired lately to just write outfit posts so I hope you guys have been enjoying my little food for thought posts. I love a good topic to write about and a lot has been on my brain lately, so for a while I think I'm going to ramble away on things I think are a little more meaningful to me at the moment than just what I've been wearing. 

Still, heres a little about my outfit! I actually made this top. I thrifted it from a charity shop and decided to go at it with the scissors, turning the front into a low cut and then a tie at the waist! I love seeing this style of shirt in stores but I don't really have the money to splash at the moment, so I did my own alternative and I love it! I think it's perfect for summer to show a little skin but at the same time not look too overly dressed up if I want to go to the pub or other things adults do that don't involve alcohol (I don't know what that is I just love alcohol) 

Pairing it with my striped 70's trousers I think it's a good way to subtly clash patterns! 

Until next time guys,

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Motel Rocks Polka Dots

Wednesday, 20 June 2018

I really struggle to dress myself when it comes to Summer and I know you're probably thinking old are you again? You can't do the basic thing of dressing yourself appropriately for different temperatures in weather? Since being a teenager I've always swayed more to the darker side of life, black is my go to and even though I have been introducing my style to colour this year I will always run to the black option when in doubt. I also like to layer up my clothing, so when the gorgeous sunshine graces us I get a little beside myself on what to wear because I have nothing for this season.

If you haven't read my last post about my insecurities you can read it here, but I mentioned how I hate to get my arms out so little strappy tops or dresses are a thing of the past for me. I've sold or gotten rid of so many little summer dresses I used to love, so now when I go to my wardrobe its either really long dresses that have never been summer time appropriate or other things I like to layer up like t-shirts and culottes. That's a go to outfit,  but there's only so many times you can put on a pair of your favourite culottes and not feel like you're repeating yourself. I had to dig right into the bottom of the wardrobe to try to salvage something for the weather, which is when I came across this dress I bought years ago and whilst yeah it's black and doesn't really scream summer, I can't take it off!

I love to wear dresses in any season and last year I found a bunch of smock dresses that have become my life saver go to dresses. They’re just so easy to throw on without needing anything else to dress them with, so I picked up bunch mainly from Depop which is where I got this polka dot dress. Motel rocks is a brand I used to love to shop with very much like misguided, the quality is always there and I think it offers a little more unique pieces than you’d think. I wanted something black but with a little something extra, so to have polka dots, roses AND a neck bow tie? I feel like I could wear this dress for many occasions and that’s always a stress saver.

I've really been wanting to challenge myself to new locations for my shoots but I'll admit living in a small village makes that a little harder than you'd think. I live out in the country and I love it, but sometimes that alternative aesthetic isn't going to be supported when I'm rolling around a farmers field full of daisies. I don't really know what my aesthetic is any more and I'm trying not to have a huge panic. I love vintage clothing, I love to thrift and quite frankly in summer I do struggle with my look because I want it to look a little lighter than the dark clothes I wear in winter. I say this as I'm sharing a black dress with you guys, but I really do want to branch out and juts create my own personal styled looks then having to claim whether it's goth or not. I'm coming to terms that my style has changed alot since I first started blogging but it's exciting and I hope you guys like the direction its going. 

polka dot dress ~ motel rocks . beret hat ~ ebay . studded shoes ~ h&m

Photography has always been a huge passion of mine that I've adapted into my career and probably most hobbies of mine. I've studied creative subjects since I was 11 and graduated last year with a degree in fine art, photography plays a huge part in everything I did so to fell more rooted I've started looking at my outfit photographs differently. I want them to be more creative, to play around with what we're capturing which I think is what draws me so much to natural locations.

My sister too these photographs who's an aspiring photographer and I love them, the contrast, lighting and even how she's played with flowers in the foreground is amazing. This post is more of a visual one but I hope you liked it all the same! 

Until next time guys,

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