Reminding myself why I love being independent and living alone

Tuesday, 20 March 2018

Just recently its been happening again. That grey sadness riddled cloud has entered my life again leaving a fog in my head that I've not been able to clear for a while. I feel negative about everything, I keep giving up, accepting I've failed and this last week was so unbearable. I think what's even worse is I can't really tell you what's spurred it on or why it's happening, I'd like to think I've been quite happy and good things have been happening for me...but at the same time that cloud is still there, it's in my brain making my stomach feel like it's sinking and I can't shake it, that when I'm alone if I don't have some sort of distraction I'll scream or feel pained. Like I said good things are happening to me but that one little bad thing is what's bringing me back down and I feel so stupid to let that one bad thing affect me like it does. I've had to really remind myself lately all the positives in my life and why I shouldn't see this period of my life as a bad thing. It's a fresh start, something that's going to open new doors and new possibilities with me.

 I always thought I'd hate being on my own but actually that's not the case at all, I love it and just to remind myself how good I've got it I wanted to write a post about a few things I'm thankful for and what makes me really happy.

you can have a routine that's all about you

It has taken me a while to figure out my living alone situation. I was quite scared at first to live on my own but now I love that feeling of being able to do what ever I want and I've worked out a routine that souly benefits me. It's not like I couldn't do what I wanted before, but there's just something completely different about an independent routine. Every things calm in the morning, things are where I left them and if I'm in a rush in the morning I can create that whirl wind of chaos and it be fine because it's my own mess in my own space that I can clean up at my own leisure. 

I've loved that moment in a morning on a weekend when I'm making a cup of tea, in my dressing gown, podcast or some up beat music on in the background and the possibilities of the day are just endless. I do love being in a relationship don't get me wrong and doing that morning routine with someone is so special, but it's been a long time since I've just had a calm morning which I then can focus all on myself. It's a little selfish, but just that calmness makes me so clear minded and having a focus in mind really is my favourite thing about being independent. No relying on anyone, I'm responsible for my own and it has encouraged me to do everything for myself! At the same time as having a routine if I decide I want to change something up or do something different there's no having to work around another person or even explaining what I'm doing, the pots can not be washed or if I want to just go out on a walk it's not weird or random because I just want some air. it's little things that I've surprisingly found enjoyable living alone.

Surrounding myself with my own things, memories, photographs and décor

When you live with someone whether it's a partner, friend, university house mate, even family it's always about some level of balance and compromise, but living alone I've really been able develop a personal space. All those photographs and memories I kept in a box are now on my walls, in photo frames next to the telly and it really lifts my spirits to look at photographs of people I love in my life. I've always wanted a wall of my favourite pieces of art and now I have that, it just makes living in a space much more enjoyable when you've been able to do it just how you want. I don't just look at it as photos of my friends and art, I remember putting the photos up, really feeling safe and happy as I made my house a home. 

I love antique décor, gothic little trinkets and I've even been able to hunt down some 70's inspired things like a long light brown tv cabinet. Moving in to a house unfurnished at first was so daunting but now I'm so happy with the furniture I managed to hunt and my favourite corner of my home is in my living room, the corner of the L sofa I've always wanted with a tall plant I've always wanted with artwork I've always wanted hung in my living room. Even when talking to people daily I feel alone a lot of the time and I laid on the sofa, feeling these empty feelings so I've had to remind myself just how I've built myself back up after a really shitty time. I've gone out and got what I want to make myself happy and I need to appreciate the space I've created more because my home is a huge reason I love being independent.

i've found myself taking my creativity to a new level
One thing keeping me going this past week has been my creativity and I'm proud of the amount of new products I drew and also the photographs I took for my blog. Don't get me wrong I probably could of done all of these things when I lived with other people, but there's just something more to being able to get on with your things on your own late into the night without having to stop the creative flow due to other things. I rarely took photographs of myself in my house but now it's my favourite spot to shoot! I've really developed my photograph quality and I love these shots I got just sitting on my sofa. I find creating art is such a good way to get yourself out of a funk or at least distract yourself from your problems, I decided to take up weaving on a loom and I'm so happy with the wall hanging results I got. I want to create a huge one for my bedroom. 

eating better through money troubles but also to look after myself
 I'm one for a good take away, but living on my own has forced me to only order out when truly necessary because so far I've been really tight on money. The first months or so of moving out is always hard, but living on my own I've found I'm actually eating so much better because I can't really afford a take away. I told myself I wasn't going to eat like a teenager if I lived alone and I've actually been looking some interesting meals everynight - it reminds me to actually look after myself and not just nurture my mind but my body too as it's all down to me now. I think its also another way to get yourself out of a funk, put some netflix on your laptop, glass of wine and cook away!    

I hope this isn't too obvious to say but I'm just really happy to be able to do me for a change, to focus just on myself and what I want in life. It's quite scary if I'm honest, now not knowing where my futures going to go but that's also exciting because it's a fresh new journey. If I wanted to go live in a city I could, where as before I don't think that would of been a possibility again in my life time. There's so many other things I'm enjoying that comes with being independent but these are the things I've had to remind myself with that I've actually got it good. It does suck when you feel a little lonely which is why I'm reminding myself it's actually ok and living alone is opening up alot of doors for me. I look at my home every day and it makes me smile, when I just pop to the pub on a whim because a friends text I just feel more free-er to do what I want. Mainly though I've been able to focus on my art store and blog to take them all to the next level and that's what I want to take this time to mainly focus on and push. 

I wanted to include some shots of my home or at least some of my favourite features around my living room and kitchen.  It's open plan downstairs so I have my living room area, an open space where the back doors are which I assume could be used as a dining area then the kitchen that cuts to the right. I didn't realise I had so much stuff but I feel damn lucky that all of this is mine and I've supported myself through living alone. I recently hung up alot of art work and an antique mirror to my wall and I love the result. It reminds me of what you'd see in a tattoo parlour with all the framed work, but I've also stuck up some photos of friends and family to keep myself reminded that they're with me on my journey.

I'd love to do more posts like this where I share bits from my home as it's develops! I feel in a completely different mind frame this week as I write this post so hopefully that's the funk floating out of my space for good. I understand we all get sad and that's fine, but I've needed to shake it so bad in order to get on with my life. 

Thankyou so much for reading guys and supporting everything I do,
Until next time guys,

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I've just launched my own independent business so here is my shop too : Witchcrafts
& My sisters Instagram for anyone who loves aspiring photographers: Perfectly Ordinals 

Paisley blue ~ Having two personalities to your style

Thursday, 15 March 2018

Hi my name is Jessica and I've suddenly become this bright red head who absolutely loves a baby blue number that screams fun and spring! How have I got to this place with my style? I feel like theres always been two sides to how I dress and I would never put specific labels on it because I just dressed however I wanted, but looking at my best outfits I'd say it's either really grungy and alternative, or pastel/colourful with a vintage twist. I love era fashion whether it's vinyl skirts and chokers from the 90's to big puffy skirts and pinched in waists from the 50's. I love love love anything from the 70's recently and it's definitely safe to say my style is always twisting and changing as of late. It feels like I almost have a split personality when I wake up in the morning and decide on what to wear, but whilst I've already spoke about not sticking to a niche which you can read here - I don't want to see me not having a strict 'style' on my blog as a bad thing. 

For a long time I'd find myself struggling if I didn't have anything new in my wardrobe to share with you guys, which it's so stupid because one that doesn't help me financially at all, and two the outfits I'm actually wearing and loving are from my wardrobe but what I'm desiring online to create an image. Thats one small thing I hate about blogging is the need to want to impress and also stay on trend, when really I love throwing on any old thing and feeling amazing despite where it's from. When I first started this blog I was obsessed with alternative fashion and don't get me wrong I still am, but the older I'm getting the more I'm open to trying new things and it's been so exciting to add different items than I'd usually go for into my wardrobe. I'll never grow out of alternative fashion but I no longer feel that if I'm not sharing with you some gothic edgy number that my blog is going up in flames, I'm so happy that every post recently has had a change of pace whether it be the topic I'm discussing or the outfit you're staring at. I feel like my style at the moment has a split personality that depends on how I'm feeling when I wake up, thats how this outfit came to be and I feel like it's 100% more authentically me than if I scramble to put some outfits together on a weekend that I've never even worn together before.

Despite currently having a play with my outfit choices I still want to refer to myself as an alternative blogger because thats truly what I think I do here on the internet. Thats my niche of people and what I want to be known as if I did slap a label on myself. Some may think thats putting myself into a box but it's a box I'm proud to be sat in - alternative bloggers stir away from the normal and hell no do I want to be that blogger who owns everything marble and only lies in skinny blue jeans and a white vest top (sorry if you do ladies you do you thats just not for me) each to their own, but I've always been proud of how unique my blog is and I'm still carrying that with me as I experiment with things.

This outfit today was a complete experiment but it felt so natural when I woke up that morning and paired these two bold items together. For years I've always wanted a teddy coat and last year I indulged in a white one, so when Blackbetty got in contact with me to work with them and I saw this loose one in blue...well you can't have enough coats when you live in England can you. Blackbetty are a online retailer that offer you daily fashion at bargain prices, perfect for someone like myself who is trying to dial down on their spending. Despite it not being my usual colour of choice I thought it was utterly beautiful, the baby blue perfect for Spring and in that instant I could see the light at the end of the tunnel thats going to be the end of this winter. 

I just wanted to go for a statement piece that was going to be perfect for the new season and I think this coat* is everything. I instantly thought to bring myself out of the dull winter I'd wear it with something white or frilly, cue in this paisley dress which has been sat in my wardrobe for nearly four years untouched. 


baby blue teddy coat* - blackberry
blue paisley shift dress - zara
strappy boot sandals - boohoo
red hair dye - live schwarzkopf
browny red lipstick - mac
yellow eyeshadow - colourpop 

I feel like sometimes when I purchase things I always swipe my card before I think, which is how I came into having this dress amongst my belongings. Back when I was in uni I decided to treat myself to quite the expensive dress for no reason what so ever. Shopping the high streets of York I fell head over heels for this paisley print dress in Zara and despite it not being my usual style of fit dress I'd go for I just told myself I'd make it work. It's never even made it outside because I disliked a few features, this sleeves being belled and a little too tight on the wrists. It's quite fitted to despite the size, so I always just put it to the back of my wardrobe...then tried to sell it. I always talk myself out of giving it up though because the pattern is just so gorgeous, so I adjusted the sleeves by cutting them and now I can't take it off. It's so strange how by just adjusting an item can make you change your mind completely. 

I'm going to be getting more crafty on my blog with fashion and include more DIY's with clothing, so I hope you're excited for that because it's something I've always wanted to do on my blog. It's a huge passion of mine and crafting makes my world go round, so it's finally coming to Heartshapedbones. 


I thought with the paisley dress having a similar colour palette to the coat made them a match from heaven - I've not been able to take this combination off! With my red hair too I think I really have made a huge change to my style of fashion that y'all might be used to. It's just something completely different for me and it's so fun to be a bit more experimental, but at the same time give me some black leather pants and a mesh top any day. I swear I really do have two different personalities when it comes to dressing myself and hopefully I can balance the two for you without looking like I'm having an identity crisis. 

Hopefully the start of my crafty DIYs will be up soon and I'm going to be discussing a lot of it over on my social medias, so I hope you head over to them if you're interested on finding out what projects are going down. 


What statement pieces have you bought for Spring? 

Until next time guys,

(*Disclaimer: this item was gifted to me for free in exchange for a blog post. All words are honest and my own)

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I've just launched my own independent business so here is my shop too : Witchcrafts
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Why I'm struggled to blog more than ever - a little honesty

Sunday, 11 March 2018

Coming to write this post I found myself sitting staring at my screen for longer than usual....and there is where my problem lies. I've never struggled to write before, yeah I've had my uninspiring times of creative dry spells, but I can say since making my blog Heartshapedbones I've never sat down to write and not had something in mind. I've started for over twenty minutes (no joke) at the space bar for the title and come up with nothing, sighed and then when I really thought about what I wanted to say words came. I'm struggling with blogging and it's a saddening truth because not only is it a new feeling but I've not wanted to think it to admit it to myself. Does that make sense? You don't want to utter a word or think it because that's admitting your problem, well, mine is that just recently I've been putting my blog on a back burner despite having all the tools I normally have to blog.

I've wanted to step up my blog or atleast do some new things because I thought it was that which is making me feel so uninspired, my sisters started taking my photos because she rocks so much and I'm  now super happy with the quality of my looks. We really get creative, scout locations and I've even been experimenting with my style of fashion that I share with you guys. I've just wanted a change in my life along with all the shit I've been dealt at the start...but still despite loving the photos, being super edited to edit and share them, I just sit at my desk again, looking at that blank screen because I seriously can't think of one thing to write. With it being Women's day this week I felt a surge in myself to get inspired again and get back into smashing blogging because I love it so much - it's what I want to do with my life, which is how this post has come to pass. It's women's day, I'm done feeling lost and I want to feel strong again, so hopefully this kick up the butt will stick and it'll all come naturally again. 


I really wanna pin all the blame on some kind of uninspired funk, but it's not that I've actually been super busy! I have a lot of things on, a lot of fingers in pies. I actually work three jobs including blogging which I do class as career, whilst then also being really involved with my family and friends. I can't sit still and thats how I've come to have so many jobs and hobbies - but I wouldn't change it, I just need to manage my time better and get organised. 

I live on my own now which is a new big change and I think I've finally settled into that new routine. I go to work, come home, clean, cook, then I get to work with projects, more work and then I can do whatever the night has inshore for me. I don't struggle to find personal time and I think that is down to having some sort of routine with my work, but theres always one thing that gets put last or on the back burner and surprisingly it's my blog for once. I've not been able to schedule posts for weeks or catch up with myself to that safe space of having a couple weeks content planned and I think thats whats messing me up. I usually try to focus my weekends on my blog work but for the past couple of weeks I've just been too busy with other things. I've spent a lot of time with friends because their company has really turned around my life back to a good safe place, whilst then making big changes to my art store thats turned into a bigger job than I had originally placed for. I've finally got my schedule back for youtube with plenty of videos ready to go and then my sister and I have been shooting on Sundays to get bulk content ready. Bulk content that I just keep not'll get to Sunday night and I'll just feel so panicked because I have no content ready for the week and I know I'm only going to get one or two free nights where I'll be free to write. I stress enough about things I don't need to stress about, but I've really been scared for my blog as my engagement has started to lower. 

Last year already seems like a life time ago to me and when I think back on my old schedule I think I just got that far ahead with prepping content that I didn't need to worry about last minute rushed posts. I want you guys to get quality content not just words thrown together because I feel the need to post and not let my little space on the internet be forgotten. Yeah I've had a lot on my plate, but I feel like it's finally time for me to buckle up again and knock this blogging thing I love out of the park. 

I find change really hard and I think it's been tough for me to accept this new way of living. New surroundings but also new people have come into my life and that in itself is a huge change to my routine. I feel like this past couple of weeks has been a huge toss up in the air and all my responsibilities are spinning around me and I just put my hand out and grab one as it randomly flies by me. It's chaotic, so I think I'm going to be more strict on myself and write up a weekly plan that will become a religious edition to my person. 

purple bee print trousers - the vintage scene
off the shoulder crop top - h&m
black beret hat - amazon
open toe sandal boot heels - boohoo
faux leather oversized jacket - h&m

It's been a long time since I wore anything off the shoulder and it felt so strange because it's normally my go to item in summer! I'm seriously missing the sun with us having a bunch of bad weather so I wanted to experiment a little with something new but also return an old fave item. One thing I love about wearing an off the shoulder top is it shows off my shoulder tattoo, but also is just a really feminine item for your wardrobe. 

I've been meaning to style these trousers for so long now and just had no clue how to style such a unique item. They're high waist smart trousers with a bee embroidered print all over them, so different but when I laid eyes on them at work I had to snatch them up. I love vintage clothing because you see things you've never seen before and thats probably what I love most about fashion. I really appreciate someone who has a style that I never see anywhere else, it's unique and as a blogger it makes for such good fashion content. I bit the bullet and styled the trousers with black to safely test the waters, but I've fallen in love with them. 

One positives to winter is I always layer up my outfits and I love how it adds character to an outfit - my trusty beret has been a staple piece constantly lately and I felt like I hadn't work a leather jacket in months so I dug out one I bought from H&M. I do love getting jackets from the high street because it promises good quality and I actually have always wanted a big leather jacket (faux) because I'm obsessed with Buff the vampire slayer who literally styles on through out the entire first season. 

I hope this isn't just a little burst of inspiration and actually sticks now that I really want to pick things back up again. Another way I find inspiration is changing things up in my wardrobe and experimenting with new things, so I was excited to challenge myself with this look.

Until next time guys,

Keep updated with me on social medias:


I've just launched my own independent business so here is my shop too : Witchcrafts
& My sisters Instagram for anyone who loves aspiring photographers: Perfectly Ordinals 


Thursday, 8 March 2018

Happy international women's day!! I'm so excited to be putting together this post because not only is it working with one of my favourite jewellery brands but it's celebrating such an awesome fucking day which is meant for us all to band together and get supportive! Carter Gore are a classic, old school inspired sterling silver jewellery brand which have invited me to be apart of their girl gang to celebrate this glorious day in March! They sent me over this gorgeous engraved Girl Gang bangle which a select number of utter babes have received too - each celebrating women and how much we all support one another, so for my post I decided what not more fitting then an appreciation post to all the females in my life that inspire, love and make me, me. 

Inspiration comes from all around, but before I take to the woman who inspire me I first look to the direct ladies in my life that not share mutual support with me but who I love and adore with my entire soul. 

I've started this year out really struggling with myself for a lot of reason and I've had so many people hold my hands the entire way which I couldn't be more thankful for. My sister  has not only been there with me day to day, helping me with the big or little things but really seeing me through my change here on Heartshapedbones. I wanted to step things up and with her amazing photography skills she's been helping me with her looks - so please check out her IG and give her some love as she's a growing photography platform, I hope to help her as much as I can just like she has for me.

Sometimes in life you come across people that you know will be in it until your dying day, I have my family, my close friends from being children, but I never thought I'd make two friendships in my adult years that would be this strong! Two fellow Carter Gore girl gang members Robyn & Jess both bloggers and the best humans in the world came into my life over a year ago now and I can't thank them enough for everything they've done for me. Keeping me sane, inspiring me but mostly just sharing such love in our little wolf pack! I speak to them daily and it's so nice to have friendships where you're all completely on the same page, same humour, same interests - I generally don't know what I would of done without them over these past couple of months.

Another amazing lady despite never meeting (YET) in my life is Meg who instantly makes me feel so clear minded and she inspires me so much. She's such a strong women that I think you all need to speak to because creativity just shines from her. I can't wait to meet her soon because I know we'll get on like a house on fire.

Here are are bunch of blogging babes you all need to check out ~ they're creative as hell and have been such a huge inspiration to me:

Not only is she run such a good blog but Jemma @ Dorkface  also has an etsy shop that you need to hit up immediately. Her work is so vibrant and fun that it just inspires me so much to grab a paint brush and start creating. Sophie @ Popcorn and glitter has always been a blog from day one that I've religiously read because her content is so friggin good. Photography, good reviews, film reviews, fashion posts, Sophie's blog has everything! Currently she's traveling in America and I've been livingggg for her photos in Salem! One blogger who inspires me to my utter core is Maria @ Life with Maria because I know no one that can slay a beauty look like her! Not only are they so out of the box but they're bloody amazing, from Halloween to drag looks, I swear Maria made me look at makeup as a form of art because what she creates is utterly stunning. I wish one day that my own alternative style can be as fucking cool as Zoe @ Zoe London , there isn't a look she does that I'm not awed at! I found Holly @ The Kitty Luxe 's blog late last year and now I read it religiously, her approach on the blogging world 100% to how I feel myself and I've never connected so much to someones writing. Her looks are flawless and she inspires me so much to become a full time blogger like myself. Wanna know who the coolest lady is in all the land? Erica @ The gothic sprite is not only one of the nicest beings I've come across on the internet but she's just so friggin bitchin! I had the chance to see her over two years ago and I'm gutted I couldn't make it, she's originally from America but I love how supportive she is and her content! Her youtube channel is goals, she's hilarious and style is to die for.

I also want to share with you guys some of the ladies I love to watch over on youtube because they are huge inspirations to my work and also push me to continue working towards my goals of being my own boss! My favourite channel that I've watched for so many years now and which inspires my own so much is Kiera Rose  purely because not only is she creative but the messages she puts out into the world truly is wanting to make change for the better. All my interests are in one channel, food, tattoos, thrifting, animals - her channel encourages my own that I can don't have to stick to any niche and I can produce what I want. Helen Anderson's channel is utter perfection, quality filming, photos, content - I've watched Helen's channel every day for years because she uploads daily vlogs! Such a queen and when I feel really low about my own vlogs or my content, her channel is definitely the one to make you feel motivated again. Lastly I love Leanne's channel because she's so down to earth and humble. You can see her personality shine through in her videos but most of all I bet she is the most supportive person ever and I really respect that. 

Some other babes on the internet who I ship so much <3:

Blogging is my biggest passion in life and theres so much more inspiration around me, but here are just a few that I want to shout from the heavens this women's day <3


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